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alone with hope fool or wise, I just spent some time crying over lost loves, feeling the empty feeling left after the pain fades to bittersweet and foggy memories that appear more transparent than visceral... I was inspired in this nobel endeavor (I figure maybe if I call it noble and put some pomp and circumstance around it, it'll amuse me more and help the sad pass into the laughter that always seems to find a way to replace the sad when I just realize that I still care and want to care and somebody just might understand and care too and be amused too and then I don't feel so all alone and cold and hopeless, so homour leads to hope, yay, a sad yay like a sigh, but a yay nonetheless)... ummm, humor too (love typos)...
why do these eyes of mine cry? don't they know... but it's not the end of the world it only feels like it is yes it feels like that anger could have my fingers curled or I just don't care can I get to that if I can then maybe someday this pain will go away but for now all I know is it feels like it's gonna stay forever is not such a very long time it last as long as the song will rhyme the promise of love above all lust is too east to trust and too easy to bust forever has come around today it came as I watched you walk away now where do I go, what do I do what comes after forever when forever... was all about you? I don't want to cry too long a pity party does make for a good song feels like such a waste of time how do I stop this cruel rhyme I don't want to reel back in change anything just to please if you can't love me for myself but why am I down on my knees love is such a tease I don't want to get like so many others get full of cynical sarcasm and distain I don't want to live to regret all the love just because it all turned into pain but I don't want to die or start to live a lie I must find a compromise that's fair that lets me love again that lets me trust again I don't want to live if I don't care someone let me care someone help me care please somebody care... oh goodness knows (and evil knows) I've been there and I still care Alex... I care.
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I love you all for coming... for reading all these words for every click feels like more love (I know that sounds absurd) if I could only tell you... one thing more tonight I'd say I wish you could come home with me and be my friends for life |