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behind the music at 420 and reaching for the memories, the telling of secrets threaded through this diary over the years, I come to face myself in a song again... and if you really want to know the one sleepwriting here on Planet Candora, then bare with me as this rambling entry unfolds and perhaps you'll find more of me in these words than you've found before... or maybe it's just another tease... you know how to find out...
I don't need to hear you're done for you can tell me what you were running from I need you more than you need you I can see you really really running may I ask you where you gonna run to and you think you're living as a ghost now not quite heaven's ugly angel we all feel like we're breaking some time I won't let you go tonight stay awake, stay awake survive I've got nineteen stars that I gave your name tonight I wanna scream, wanna scream your name starlight, my life can save, you're my wish tonight don't tell me nothing matters I'll tell you what matters bare feet in the summer open windows at night you think that no one needs you you have nothing to see through well I need you I need you don't I count in this life it's morning now, time to suffer again a safety that drunk can't find stay awake, stay awake survive I've got nineteen stars that I gave your name tonight I wanna scream, wanna scream your name starlight, my life can save, you're my wish tonight no one can catch me the way that you catch me the way that you keep me when I'm out of time what if I need you when I can't see you when I'm running out of life? no one can catch me the way that you catch me the way that you keep me when I'm out of time what if I need you when I can't see you when I'm running out of life? life... life... life... yeah... stay awake, stay awake survive I've got nineteen stars that I... stay awake, stay awake survive stay awake, stay awake survive wanna scream, wanna scream your name starlight, my life can save, you're my wish starlight, you're my wish, my world you're my wish tonight that's Meg and Dia... thank you band, thank you Meg, thank you Dia... I love you, and if there is anything I can do to say thank you, anything at all, I am at your service in the truest sense of the word as knights meant it once upon a time... and I have another 420 song (there's a private personal depth there I've not touched in years, but still, I know it is where I live)... from, to, wish, dream, and if we like, call it a prayer... and I wonder if the writer and the singer feel anything close to what I feel when I hear it and when I sing it... and I wonder how they knew I've been singing it all my life... yeah... the recurring theme of my life is reborn anew and if the ones who gave it rebirth never actually know or share the real time with me, they open the door for someone else... and that is wonderful... and that is glee... and that is how it works, the recycle, the healing, the magic... the method to my madness is not just the writing, but the music (and I've stayed away so long)... finding the song(s) that compel me awake, that capture my essence, that propel me back out of the cocoon and demand I actualize... a song that can play on repeat dozens of times and each time it enters my subconscious a bit more as if I wrote the words because they fit me so deeply and so well... a song that begs me to sing and the excitement is amazingly through the roof no matter how long I've been awake and it is more intense, more true, and closer to my heart and mind and soul and spirit and anima and ka and whatever we might call the purest essence of the being that I know as me... lather, rince, repeat... and enjoy J
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I love you all for coming... for reading all these words for every click feels like more love (I know that sounds absurd) if I could only tell you... one thing more tonight I'd say I wish you could come home with me and be my friends for life |