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I am here... inner silence always waiting always hoping always wanting something more I am here without violence always wishing always hungry always ready to be sure but the world has taught me how to laugh at love and how to cry at silly things and experience has shown me how to embrace pain and forget how to play heart strings in the quiet moments of darkness the night asks me what happened to the song my heart sings and the love it used to bring I am here inner silence mostly sleeping mostly numb and mostly feeling mostly dead I am here an appliance without reason without pleasing all the dreams inside my head for this life has taught me how to be suspicious and cold and experience has taught me how to shut down and grow old in the quiet moments of darkness the night asks me what happened to the dream my heart lived when my love was so bold I am here inner silence slowly drowning semi-frowning even clowning for my fans I am here self-reliance hidden so well no one can tell no one knows who I am for this life has taught me reasons to give up on my dreams and experience has given me enough challenge it seems in the quiet moments of darkness the night asks me what happened to the faith my heart knew when knowing what love means I am here inner silence always repeating and self-defeating lazy, non-competing now I am here faintly smiling sloppy styling final miling gradually forgetting how for this story has no ending without finding love again and this life has no meaning without finding a best friend in the quiet moments of darkness the night asks me what happened to the soul my heart always knew as my journeys end I am here inner silence forgetting remembering forgetting again I am here don't remind me please remind me someone find me again nothing ends and nothing starts maybe falls apart in the quiet moments of darkness when faith is science the night asks me what happened to my heart and then I pondered as I was writing a letter to anabliss... is that the song that never ends that Shari Lewis used to sing about? (is that irreverence attempting to sidetrack, distract, or simply lighten the load or mood or something like that?... rhetoric questions, especially rhetorical questions in parentheses... it's a habit, a pattern, a message of sorts... understand?)...
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I love you all for coming... for reading all these words for every click feels like more love (I know that sounds absurd) if I could only tell you... one thing more tonight I'd say I wish you could come home with me and be my friends for life |