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living so what happens?... I am immersed in my memories (and feeling some music) and I see a banner that tells me nothing is ever forgotten so I risk crashing this laptop (because it is on the edge of memory limits at the moment) and I click on the banner and find this and figure it might be time to add her to my favorites list (but I'm not going to open other windows just yet) because she's gotten my attention with banner ads before and she thinks/writes really deep stuff... an odd thought crosses my mind, I just wish she wasn't made of porcelean)...
and all the love I used to give but I don't want wallow in what is missing today I want to start again and find a better way one that won't fail one that won't pale in comparison to what was I want to move on from this pause I need another cause my heart is stuck in pause I miss the wife I used to love the family I placed above all else in this life, but what is gone is gone and there is no going back, I want to carry on not all alone for love I've known is how I want to share I want to show how much I care I do not need despair I need someone to be aware life goes on beyond tragedy beyond any losses beyond misery life goes on always born anew always seeking more always being true and all we can take with us sometimes is hope and all we've got to show for it sometimes is the end of our rope but there's always some way to cope we've just got to find it there's always some way to elope you just can't rewind it go on with life let hope be your bed when you've just need time to rest your head just keep breathing no matter how strange life goes on time brings change I miss the life I used to live and all the love I used to give but I don't want wallow in what is missing today I want to start again and find a better way one that will share all we can care about when our hearts are true I want to move on from this loneliness I need another reason to do another season for my heart to renew and maybe someone understands maybe it is you ah, so I've fallen in love with Natalie (and I mock myself for playing with the risks of listening to lyrics with a lonely heart wide open)... but don't be fooled, I am still very much in a lull (even as I share a secret smile)...
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I love you all for coming... for reading all these words for every click feels like more love (I know that sounds absurd) if I could only tell you... one thing more tonight I'd say I wish you could come home with me and be my friends for life |