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sometimes it seems like I've been gone and in what might be considered real time, this is probably true, and if we could agree on what real time is, I might even agree... but time is irrelevent on planet c and though I do beam these words down to Earth so you can read them, it is still too much work to keep track of time the way most humans do... really, it becomes an obsession for some of you folk... I mean, half your lives are spent trying to find something to do with the time you've rushed through life trying to save... or something like that...
don't be too concerned I won't ask for nothing while I'm gone" (though it's still wonderful to find stuff when I get back [insert cheesy grin])... and thank you Billy for the words that sum up what I was trying t say so much more succinctly than my words do... a see, I am sometimes off licking wounds that will remain open until another tongue licks them (and before you go getting your tongues out, please understand that it must be the right tongue and also, since this entry had sexual overtones earlier, it's important to mention that this tonguing reference was not meant to be sexual but rather nurturing like a mother at cleaning her kittens... my mother always told me that analogies or metaphors or whatever we call them can be quite dangerous in the wrong hands... or mouths... actually, my mother never said that... at least not to me... I don't even know if she ever read a book, no less wrote or knew literary terms... and there I go digressing again... must be something I ate)... but sometimes I am just busy with life offline and not making time to upload because I'm just barely squeaking out time to jot a few thoughts down each day... that is one reason time is irrelevent... I might sit down with a weeks worth (or two or more) of thoughts and notes and suddenly a dozen or more entries come pouring out in one sitting... we've been through that before, right?... I know I explained it somewhere... so I really do appreciate you patience and concern and love it when you inquire (but don't worry), but I'm a stubborn babbler and sometimes I just withdraw to my own planet and nothing can drag me back until I am ready to return (I remember a time when I accepted an Article 15 for AWOL from Uncle Sam because I was too busy doing something to head over to the infirmary and get a fake excuse for missing a shirt in the ER... yes, I was briefly in the US Army once... might be a segment or few for Ripley's Believe It Or Not in that story, but anyway a half dozen friends tried to break down the door to my room even after I told them I'm not coming out and all the noise of chairs smashing against the door - I mean, I had to turn up the music they were getting so loud - didn't pursuade me to stop what I was doing and follow the rules... but again I digress... maybe not as much as I usually digress, but still)... I am not immune to feeling unappreciated (however foolish or wrong it may be, feelings are valid even if they are unfounded by the evidence) or unworthy of being out here publicly sharing words... life doesn't begin and end with a check of the stats or of how many people listed me as favorites, but heck, when creating illusions of grandeur, every little bit helps... and even more seriously, though there may not be nearly as much insecurity on planet c as there is on Earth, it does exist and it's infinitely insatiable when a storm of it sweeps across the landscape... so it's sometimes this and sometimes that and sometimes the other thing, but it's no major cause for a seven alarm call to the local suicide hotline when I disappear for a little while... a call to my cell, on the other hand, would be a wonderful surprise (but far be it for me to leave subtle hints, or even winks, nods, or nudges idly laying around)...
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I love you all for coming... for reading all these words for every click feels like more love (I know that sounds absurd) if I could only tell you... one thing more tonight I'd say I wish you could come home with me and be my friends for life |