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mostly blah sometimes there is not enough time to put the words together and get into the flow and wait for the connection to upload and edit (what, me edit?)... and sometimes I feel like I have nothing worth saying, nothing worth putting out on the web for public consumption (what, me doubt?)...
there is a reason for my multiple personalities, that is, my different journals/diaries online (and off)... in fact, there is more than one reason... I do not have time to find them all now, no less explain them all, but there are reasons... one reason is to create a place in me (and hopefully outside of me in my writings and sharings and other things I do) that is pure positivity, pure optimism and light... I do not know if this is that place, but this place is a place I consciously attempt to bring positivity to... this place is a place I consciously try to create with love and not fear or doubt or any negative energy... I consciously avoid this place when I feel anything other than the optimistic hopeful power of believing in love and a wonderful life and the ultimate triumph of good over evil (is there really evil?) or to put it more in terms I understand, in the end the universe balances out to a positive place... and yet, I have not visited the places I am supposed to go when I find negativity or even blahs (absense of any inspiration)... that may be why there is so little to say... the blahs are clogging up the flow cuz I am not finding time or motivation to let them out... the apathy and procrastination gains power when life becomes too busy to focus on the positive creativity and hope of finding sharings more personally intimate and meaningful than the gifts I give in my daily trying to help others professionally... I wonder when I will continue...
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I love you all for coming... for reading all these words for every click feels like more love (I know that sounds absurd) if I could only tell you... one thing more tonight I'd say I wish you could come home with me and be my friends for life |