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mydreams I'd like to take you deeper, but SportCenter has repeated for the umpteenth time this morning and it's being watched as if it is playing for the first time, but then, it's still not as fascinating as commercials... and there's chocolate cake being picked at repeatedly and crumbs falling and the general air of ADD in the air and what can we do about it other than strive to focus on the babble in the words and find something meaningful that might be a hook that might drag us out of the repetitive self-indulgence and basically culturally approved (or at least widely accepted) abuses and insensitivities and nothing else matters because the train of thought flew off it's tracks ages ago and nobody noticed because nobody cared and that is why we are where we are now, wherever it may be...
I don't know how or why I don't want to die but I may have forgotten how to live I don't know why I was born I don't want to mourn but I may have nothing left to give outside of dreams life is as empty as it seems it's raining tears has it been too many years feeling so old so early in the century is the world cold or is it just me and maybe all I've got left when all is said and done is the magic of the moment and dreams of having fun as I forget the loneliness and somehow put aside the pain I can lose myself in dreams and live in the moment again even when I do not find the words to explain even when I I feel insane lost in my brain even if nobody cares as it sometimes seems even if nobody shares I have my dreams so even when I don't remember how to cope even when I forget there is hope even when I lose my way and don't know what it means I somehow find my way back to my dreams when nothing else is left I have my dreams
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I love you all for coming... for reading all these words for every click feels like more love (I know that sounds absurd) if I could only tell you... one thing more tonight I'd say I wish you could come home with me and be my friends for life |