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when is then
where is email
who i am
how it is
why it is
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part of the plan

I tried to fall asleep, really I did... I laid this body down and closed my eyes and told my brain to sleep... an hour later I was listening to some music that was supposed to be distracting me from the 900 mile an hour thoughts that were parading and dancing and doing battle inside my head... so many voices, so little time...

I need more sleep, really I do... I've been working double shifts and still trying to keep the daily 8-mile going, but I see my mistake... I've been writing less... in fact, two full days passed without turning on this laptop (singing, breathing, writing, reading, these are signs of life for me... so when I stop doing any one of them for a few minutes even, I can get very blue... die, even)... no wonder I couldn't sleep...

I'm not much of an insomniac, really I'm not... rarely in this life have things piled up inside to a point where sleep does not come when I want it to... I've been blessed with a relatively independent and reslilient peace of mind that can find it's own little island of security and comfort most anytime... but I'm not perfect, so I do have my restless tosses and turns...

the last couple of hours has been one of those... so I came here and scribbled out a few or five or so entries... now you, my dear precious treasured readers, have some more words in your never-ending quest to understand me... my ego, my heart, my mind, my soul, my funny bones miss you... and as my eyes grow heavy and hope for sleep comes closer (it better, I've got to be at work again in a few hours), I thank you for caring (and letting me know... and if you didn't let me know, well, maybe you did and didn't realize it... thoughts go a long way sometimes, ya know?)...

I love you, really I do... and I hope someday all of you believe me... and I appreciate you if you do already... someday we'll all understand (song cue)...

candora

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I love you all for coming... for reading all these words
for every click feels like more love (I know that sounds absurd)
if I could only tell you... one thing more tonight
I'd say
I wish you could come home with me and be my friends for life


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